15th December 2014

I skipped November didn't I?

Pardon me for that

I've lost my grandmother last saturday around 6.20pm

Earlier that morning I went to Shah Alam 

woke up early and left my beloved bed

drove like a mad lady; and went through the day

learning new things.

came back home in one piece

and received a call from my aunt in Melaka

Had a bad feeling seeing her name pops up on the screen

gave it to ayah

I heard screaming.

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Top World University Programme (TWU)

Wan Ahmad Fayhsal; 27, berkahwin;

for the first 10 minutes listening to this guy...

I was like...apa yang mamat ni cuba sampai kan sebenarnya?

half of the audience dah keluar dewan

banyak ruang kosong yang membuatkan

organizer and participants kurang bersemangat nak teruskan program

1st thought; budak UiTM ni memang tak hormat orang

ingat senang ke nak plan semua ni

nak rancang and buat semua ni...

dengan panels orang luar...malu nya *sorok muka belakang kerusi banquet

makin lama dia bercakap aq tanpa sedar makin khayal

apa itu ijazah?

mana datang perkataan tu

apa purpose sebenar kita nak dapat kan ijazah tu?

apa purpose sebenar kita ada kat dunia ni

semua berbalik kepada "amanah"

perjuangan; ilmu; 

betapa Islam tu memuliakan ilmu

betul; kadang kadang aq sebagai student lupa kenapa sebenarnya kita start study pun

ingat tak kenapa?

for better future?

for better job prospects?

better pay?

tapi alangkah rugi nya 

sebab aq lupa

niat semua kena lillahita'ala

rugi kan?

thank you Allah

sebab gerakkan hati pergi TWU one more time

to meet this guy

and open up my eyes and betulkan niat

Let's start over shall we

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stayed for 2 nights at kampung

each morning I was greeted with kokokan ayam and embun pagi

sejuk. lama tak rasa suasana kampung.

menggamit memori.

keluar bilik nampak adik beradik ayah keliling meja makan

bersarapan.

dalam hati " dah tua masing masing; mak ayah tak ada

diorang ada anak anak and siblings je sekarang"

*sebak*